Believe Me…

Believe me when I tell you I lied,
You know you can trust me,
so it doesn’t matter how it hurt,
I did it for a reason.

Believe me when I tell you that I want you,
After I told you that I didn’t,
It doesn’t matter how it hurt,
Because I did it for a reason.

Believe me when I tell you that I understand,
While I trash all you believe in,
Still doesn’t matter how it hurt,
Because I did it for a reason.

I’ll tell you that I love you,
Then tell you I was joking,
I’ll tell you that I need you,
Just not right now,
I’ll tell you that we mean a lot,
Just not enough to matter.

Believe me when I tell you that I cared,
While ignoring how I made you feel,
How I hurt you,
How I crushed you,
How my heal ground you to dust as I passed,
You know I did it for a reason after all.

The Pain Inside

How could you,
what did I do to deserve,
What gives you the right to cause me such pain?

I was there for you, all the way,
Gave my heart to you, every day,
Shared my soul, my self, my family, my bed.

Did I do you such wrong,
Did I hurt you so bad,
When you needed me there did I turn my back?

Did I tread on your dreams,
Or snuff out your lights,
Did I trample your hopes as you slept in the night?

You’ve treated me bad,
You know I never did,
I offered you kindness,
And you took the piss.
I never thought, even after all that we did,
You’d stoop so low as to come to this.

Where did I go wrong,
How did I come to this,
How do I cope,
Tell me how to get through it.

You need to remember,
I know you to,
Where you work, play and sleep,
Who you talk to and kiss.

What you don’t realise,
By closing this door,
You’ve opened a pit,
A giant ravening maw,
That can swallow you whole,
Your ego and all.

Don’t step near that edge,
Don’t risk you might fall,
For the pain inside,
Will sustain a fire,
That will burn you up,
along with all you desire.

Not payback, nor vengeance,
Neither reprisal or retribution.
But karma will call on you,
When you least expect.
She’ll wear my face,
Stained with the tears I shed.

When that day comes,
I’ll be cheering her on,
For you lost my faith, friendship and support,
When you used me and hurt me,
Without some much as a thought.